Babywearing experience: Bebe Sachi Attacus Mei Tai review

This is my first time owning and wearing a Mei Tai. Before this I don't have any idea on how to tie one as I am also a beginner with woven wraps. Actually, I did not intend to buy a Mei Tai BUT since this Mei Tai is the only one left in the Attacus Borneon series. I decided to just go for it! In fact it is not even sold at the Bebe Sachi's online shop anymore. It was released in 2016 btw. I just messaged them to try my luck on any of their Borneon series available.

Look at this beauty! A must have! How can you say NO to this.

The pattern is something so close to heart (as I am from Borneo ) and I couldn't help to fall in love with the fabric over and over again. Yes, it was love at first sight! Although, I was reluctant to fork out that much money for this Mei Tai but but but I can't resist it. It so meant to be. LOL.

(Attacus Atlas)

Background: Please welcome the long awaited third sibling in the Bebe Sachi Bornean series, Attacus, named after the magnificent Atlas moth. Yes, you may think it rather absurd, naming a wrap after a moth, because in reality, producing textiles means avoiding moths at all costs! But Attacus Atlas is no ordinary household moth. Once thought to be the largest moth in the world, it is commonly found throughout the Malay Archipelago. Named after the Titan of Greek mythology, or in Cantonese, the name translates to "snake's head moth” as the wing pattern is thought to resemble a snake's head; the Atlas moth is simply stunning. Looking at the hand painted, ikat technique, design of the wrap, you can see the master dyer capture abstracted moth wing flutterings in deep purples and pink, not too dissimilar to Attacus. Our love for Borneo and everything it represents inspired us to produce this series. Rita and Azizah spent many formative childhood years in Sabah and Sarawak and remain closely tied to the area today. The abundance of insects in Borneo is astounding, with many new species being discovered every year. Azizah has fond memories studying insects of all shapes and sizes with scientists from Sabah Universities in areas like the Poring Hotsprings and around Mt Kinabalu. Often a simple lamp left on outside the chalet was enough to attract a huge variety of exciting insects to study. Today, Azizah’s father still ventures out on long scientific expeditions but often reports “there just isn’t as many insects as when you were younger”. We are hopeful that our children will grow up to continue to appreciate nature and maybe , ...even spot the wonderful Attacus Atlas!  - slingofest.com

I am still very much clumsy with this Mei Tai but I love it cos it is much faster to be wrap around compared to a woven wrap. Fast and easy. I took it out for an outing test drive today with Aaron today. Aaron loves this Mei Tai.

I posted this Mei Tai on my Instagram ( @joan_jade ) and indeed a lot of my other Borneo friends also shared the same view like me. This is indeed a beautiful piece. A friend who doesn't have a baby also said she will actually just wear it for the sake of fashion. Haha.

Love the sight of the passes at the back too. A work of art definitely.

But my wrapping skills still need some practice as the knot does not hold its position after moving around visiting the show house in Eco Majestic.

I do hope there will be more ethnic inspired design from Bebe Sachi in the future. Ooh, I did also buy another wrap from them. I will blog about it when I have the time.

4 months young

My sunshine is 4 months young today. Time flies! Ah, babies they grow up SO fast. I am so glad that I took this extra leave (although unpaid). Like a friend of mine who is doing the same thing said. Money can earn later. This time with the baby can't be repeated.

I can be there most of the time for him. Never mind the life that I used to have. No more going out for shopping. For hanging out with friends. No more going concerts. Priorities changed. Things have changed now.

BUT online shopping still ada. Hahaha. And with a baby now, the baby is always an excuse to spend money. LOL

Adjusting to motherhood

This blog is super dusty! Haha. I am more into micro blogging on instagram and instastories these days. I also just revived my photography love since I have Aaron around. My camera was also dusty. LOL.

I am currently on a no pay maternity leave. Extended one. Not a stay-at-home mom just yet. I wish I can though. That will be nice. I will be back to work only on December. That is school holiday already. Hahaha.

Hey Aaron!

I was 40 weeks and there's no sign of labor, baby's head is still floating (could be due to my pelvic bone shape that doesn't baby's head engagement) . Whatever lah! basically baby is not coming out. Placenta is heavily calcified according to the doctor that it might not serve its full function at anytime.

So, I went to "surrender" myself on the 7th of June, after giving the baby two days to give me any sign of not going for a c-section. Personally, I have never been so indecisive in my life but this decision is something that left me thinking and sleepless too. For me c-section is a major abdominal surgery and it takes longer time to recover because I do not want to be off from my fitness routine for so long. Anyway, enough for thinking only for myself, now its not only about me.

I got the bracelet as a ticket for my 3 days 2 nights "vacation" in the hospital ward. I have never been warded before, let alone having an IV drip - now, I am in for a major surgery. Okay, enough of this thinking and thinking, just do it!

The stylish uniform, moments before being wheeled in by a wheelchair to the OT. I was like, hmm, I can walk, why the wheelchair. Bah, biarlah. Then, I am being transferred to a bed, wheeled in again. OMG, this transition is to set my mind to be in the OT mode is it?? I was nervous AF at that time but I can only smile to mask it. Pretending to be strong, it is all in the mind. Yes. Luckily, the mister was around and he is the key to my strength. I can't imagine to go through everything alone.

To sum everything up in the OT:

• Got my first IV drip ever in my life. I thought the branula insertion will hurt, tidak pula. LOL
• Spinal block inserted (I feared this the most), mine was done while I was lying on my side and was being asked to curve myself like a ball. I just don't wanna know how they did it, but the sensation felt after that is just WEIRD
• Got prepped for surgery, the curtains up and God knows whatever they are doing to me behind the curtain.
• I only see my husband once they are ready for surgery. He was not there during the spinal block insertion (in which I thought he will be there during that time...boohoo!)
• There was a moment where I can't breathe and I thought I was dying. Adui. It was SUPER uncomfortable. SUPER SUPER uncomfy moment (later on few weeks post surgery then only my husband said that was the time when they start to cut me open)
• They push push my stomach. Haha. Terus nda susah lagi mo bernafas. LOL
• My baby didn't cry when he came out, too comfy. He only cried when he was being cleaned.
• After all those, then only I feel drowsy and I felt so tired

My first time meeting Aaron. I thought I would cry like those other birthing moments. But I am more stunned to actually know that my baby is now out. Hahaha. Terkajut bah!

Then of course the recovery post op was very unpleasant. I could not feel my legs for at least 5 to 6 hours. I am constantly on pain killer. For the first 24 hours, I am on bed rest with a catheter to drain my urine. I can't hold my baby like other SVD moms could as I was high on painkiller and still half paralyzed.

It was only by nightfall that they put my baby next to me start suckling. In which another frustration comes as I am a first time mother, no breast milk yet and I just had a c section. The hormones doesn't kick in as fast as the SVD moms. Oh well, cuddle time saja la. 

Thank you to those who made an effort to visit me at the hospital. After the whole experience, I see people around me in a new light especially my husband. I saw another side of him that I never seen before and I love him more for that. 

Yah, horrible face post operation. But my kudou still on fleek. Hahaha. sempat bah pigi bikin kening sebelum beranak

Andui kasian bah have to put up on the sofa saja, sajuk lagi tu aircon tu.

We are so happy to see our bundle of joy. I am embracing everything like a trainwreck. I am also so thankful to my family (especially Mom) who went for the extra mile in helping me to take care of the baby, the tips and guides. My family is a good team for taking care of me and the baby during the confinement and during my meltdowns.

Me and the mister are embracing the sleepless nights, aching arms and nappy changes like a noob. Kasian bah! First time parents kan. But it gets better every day lah. That's the mantra.