Today, start with the wrong foot at work. This week is my turn as the teacher on duty. Teacher on duty work includes preparing the hall together with the prefect for the assembly. (Total WTF right, but it's the job). I don't even have time to clock in then one of my boss called to see me. I rushed to check things at the hall and come back for the boss.
Then all the discussion about the timetable and what nots took place and I
found myself reporting about colleagues who just don't go into their classes for various reasons. I was just bringing it up because I took responsibility for making the timetable as such that they had trouble going in class. Yeah, tai chi -ing the blame just doesn't work. Might as well blame myself.
I am just ranting now. You may not understand what is the situation. Bottom line is I felt overwhelmed. Yes. Very!!
I am also public enemy number one at school because
1) I arrange timetables for teachers
2) I kepochi go and report people based on feedbacks from my colleagues
And I never felt so alone doing all the work. Netball team (both under 18 and 15), I coached them alone. Bought them a ball and netball bibs as well. When I seek help, all I get is refusal. Just don't get me started about other clubs and teams.
Can you imagine? I am a science teacher and this year am teaching Maths, science and English. Being asked to lead the puisi dan lagu team as well. Are you confused as much as I am now? They think I am wonderwoman isit?
I started to develop so much hatred towards my colleagues now whenever I think about the difference of workload and thinking about the amount of pay everyone is getting.
Why bother working so hard if you will also get paid the same like the not so hard working people? That's the ultimate question. Why bother?? As much as I remind myself about the utmost reason why I am sacrificing most of my time for work (that is for the students), I do crumble and fall under this intense pressure.
I am not perfect, I make mistakes. But can't we just practice good karma? Do your best as a teacher and don't get paid blindly doing nothing.
P.S: I just don't get it why things should always go wrong all at the same time. I need to print exam results and my printer is causing me problems apart from having no paper to print.