I just wish I can absorb everything and when I am full of everything, I can just twist and dry myself without hurting anyone including myself.
Yeah. How I wish.
I just got a call from a distraught mother of a student in my class. The student has some attitude problem and what not la. Then of course, I have to listen and listen and listen for all I know this is not the first time that she called me to seek for help in tackling the daughter's problem.
I took pity of her. The school has their own way of managing this kind of problems and the parents has their own. I appreciate both ways but now things are getting more complicated and the kid seems to hate everyone around her except her friends. How should I help her then? Oh and btw she is not the only one causing problems in the class. Easily there are 6 or more of them but this particular student has a very responsible mother.
The phone call was just the closure about what happened today. As usual a monday afternoon at work is not something that I and I think my students are looking forward to. Again, nagging happens and I just don't know what I was babbling about either because part of brain was trailing about the work, personal problems, things need to be done, things I haven't done....and the list goes on.
There were many times that I mis-pronounced words, haywired sentences, wrong spellings and mistakes in my numbers. So, anyone who saw me in a very strange manner i.e looking to space in the midst of my work, my brain is on a monologue mode.
Where did I do wrong?
In the midst of the chaos in my head, I tried my best to mark two classes punya exercise books. I recently had given my students some short test to evaluate them on a recent topic. Notes and explanations and quizzes done very well in class. I changed some question and voila..all I got is some crap on a piece of paper.
Out of 4o something students, 98% gave me crap and bullshit. It's as if I never taught them anything in the first place. Wawawawawa.. where did I go wrong.
I kept reminding my students that the exam is on the first week of May. My boss had been asking about the questions. Have I prepared them or not? I said I am working on it. Truth is...I haven't start any... Huhu
See, my job requires me to satisfy every other person's needs. I listen. I follow. I absorb everything. If I complain, I am a moaner. If I say it out, I am nagging. If I play dead, the result is a very severe headache. I hope hypertension is NOT on the way.
How I wish I am a sponge. sigh